Mandy Candy

That’s all guys see me as.. so treat me that way. I implore you.

Who says you aren’t a good mom if you have depression? I may not be good at much but I know I’m a damn good mom. Having kids doesn’t magically take your inner issues away but I manage pretty well. My house is spotless, my kids never go without, every weekend we take them out and do something fun with them, we teach them about being charitable and caring towards others, I never let anyone I don’t absolutely know will care for them as well as I watch them. I’m the most over protective mother you will ever meet. I never go out and party with friends and never have let my kids see me drink a drop of alcohol. Yeah, I take Xanax. They’ve had me on it for 2 years now. I wish I was never introduced to this crap but you can’t just stop taking it after that long. And yeah, sometimes I cut, but if you don’t and can’t understand it, that’s fine. I don’t know why I do it either. Does it mean my kids are around when I do it? No fucking way. I know what its like to have a fucked up childhood. Mine is full of sadness and abuse and I would never put them though that shit. So if you want to judge me, that’s totally fine. You know me only through my rantings and nothing more.

Onyx can be used to banish grief, center and align your being with higher powers, and stimulate wise decision-making. It encourages happiness and good fortune. This stone can help one become a master of their own future by giving understanding, intuition and the recognition of ones personal strengths.